Psalm 3. A Shield for Me
Lord, how increased are those who trouble me;
Many are those who rise up against me.
Many are those who say of my soul
There is no help for him in God.
What is happening , Lord? Why are people rising up against me and troubling me. What have I done? Tell me, Lord. Tell me where to go on from here. I can’t change things that have happened. People’s hearts are hardened against me. There is no trust. War has been declared against me. I wasn’t ready for battle. I have no armour. I haven’t strategized or made plans.
I know these people have no intimacy with you. I know they think relying on you is foolishness, that I have no help from your grace.
They don’t believe.
But, you, O Lord, are a shield for me,
My glory and the lifter of my head
Lord, you’ve been my shield for so long, through the worst and most ravaging times of my life. You’re the one I rely on, and you lift my head and stand me tall and go with me, assuring me that I am beloved in spite of what everyone else thinks. Despite the mistakes I make.
I cried unto the Lord with my soul,
And he heard me out of his holy hill
I laid me down and I slept;
I awaked for the Lord has sustained me.
I prayed from the deepest place in my heart, Lord, that you at least give me rest, so I could face a new day with whatever new battle I face.
I don’t remember falling asleep, but when I awoke I was refreshed, and I knew…
I knew. You put the words in my head.
I will not be afraid of ten thousands of people
Who set themselves against me round about.
Even ten thousand. You will protect me and keep me standing if I face thousands of people. I know this now. I repeat it to myself throughout the day. No one can come against me and destroy me. I don’t need to live in fear of the next attack.
Fear. What is it that I remember being taught about fear?
Fear cannot exist where there is love. The two can’t live in the same place. One is dark, and one is light. They can’t coexist.
Fear cannot exist in love.
I know I love. I know how deeply I love. I have no fear. I have only your purpose. You’ve set my priorities. You’ve shown me where I stand and what I should do. What my responsibilities are now. Today. What I need to do today.
Once again, from a place deep in the dark pit, you’ve given me peace. You’ve set my purpose aright. And, yet again, I am back in your light.